you and me

Do I understand you?
you look different. Yap, you really different.
This is about my feeling.

I'm not boy who don't care about future.
I know my destiny! and I belive about it.
doing everything for my life. I like it.
I'm busy about my future. But, why I cannot stop thinking!
because it is still unclear. And, I force my hearth to understand it.

am I happy? maybe yes maybe no.
Is happiness that I want?
I want the best for me and give you the best.

Can you tell me? can you tell me that you can't with me?
tell me! tell me!
even though it's hurt!
I wan tell you, I want talking to you.
why I can't? because of you? because you're different?

am I jealous?  see you smile and laugh, I just can said : " I think this is my first time see her smile" (to your friends)
I scared, to lost everything. not only your partner who feel alone. me too.
not easy for my hearth to still strong!
I'm not valuable! I relize about it.
I want to go far, I know you, I love you.
at first time I see you.

what do you want from me?
everything is getting worse. and I ready to lose you. even if I still doubt!
I weak, it is my weakness!
Can you help me? can you?
to grow my feeling!
time is running, and I will forgotten accidentally.
I must ready, to face it!
My way in my arm. And my way according to you.
Now, up to you.
tell me clearly sooner!

Really, not easy for me to falling in love.
and not easy for me to stop thingking about you.
I know this is not good, but I know the best!

I scared about another man, will come to you!
later, it will hurt me more.
I just can smile to him. when talking about you.

Now, time we're going home. and what you want to talk?
fiuhh....
one thing that makes me post this
because, I love you for long time. and, you may to change it what you like!

*udahah, cape pake bahasa kucing!

sebenarnya aku ingin suatu keterbukaan.
maaf jika ini menjijikan buat kamu baca.
tapi saya tau resikonya, dan saya akan telan itu.
dan aku akan tetap jadi diri sendiri!

masih berharap, kalau kamu memang matahari..^^

How I Meet you

Seperti dua kapal yang berpapasan sewaktu badai
kita telah bersilang jalan satu sama lain
tapi kita tidak membuat sinyal
kita tidak mengucapkan sepatah kata pun
kita tidak punya apapun untuk dikatakan

For Everything I'am _ Christian Bautista

I may not be beside you every day
I may run out of tender words to say
Can't promise you the world
When all i have is love
Only love

I may not be the one your thinking of
I may not fit your perfect dreams of love
One thing I know for sure
And you can rest assure
My love is always yours

Oh baby
Won't you look into my eyes and see
Beyond the things I'm not, there's love inside of me
Just love me for all things I am, love me
The lighter side, the darkest side
Try to love me for everything I am

You, you been inside
You've seen the darkest side of me
I've shown you everything I am, everything..

 karena lagu ini saya jadi teringat Rachmat, haha.

diawali karena saya ga bawa laptop, dan semester ini saya akan mencoba tanpa laptop. 

C O N F U S I O N

The night passed easily, and time is over.
Complicated, you know?

Hate today! what in my mind? *nothing
Till today, you still like another,.
Be ordinary person, I love it.

What happen with me?
My act like child!
I know you and love you, everyone have their talent!
So, you have! like your name!
Your mom faith to you. When you sad, try to smile!

In my dreams,
I saw your smile
I saw your conceited
I saw there is hope
But, there also my hope is ripped
Thinking the possibilities.
Where you are and what you do.
only one your smile! You know, everything attack you till you die.
Only one your smile, you must!


Before come back, till cry.
There is no information, and sad ending.
can you reply? WHY?
Everyone has feeling the same like you.
Even if the life is survive and compete.
But, I sure she has!


Sometime I wish I could say it.
Till your act is the absolutely as impossible.
Sometime I can go away.
But, the way is blocked by my hearth.


Can I say today?
Tomorrow maybe, Good night, and Good bye.
We have to go!
in one way! and I still as your unreal friend. Only illusion!
There is no me in your day because of Love.
When I have only Love